Carn by Jeff Le Bars

Let go!

Letting go...
Man I want to be able to do it all the time. I seem so used to holding on ... And only when I surrender, IT starts to flow..

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Hello there,
this past weekend I visited the Adirondacks  mountains. Real stuff :) I climbed three peaks and felt quite good about it.
Here are some photos.

This is my last week at Sundance Channel for the near future. May be I'll write a bit more in the next couple of weeks before I go visit my family in Bulgaria.

Right  now I don't have much to say.

The path continues.

Me, nature and thoughts on the Appalachian Trail

This weekend I undertook a section of the AT again but this time I went alone. All the people from the hiking groups I befriended had already planned other trips, and I though it was good opportunity to try a hike by myself. Only me and nature.
Overall it was quite an experience. It's a different feel when I am by myself. It felt a bit lonely at night while I was camping. I expected people in the camp to be more social but everybody had their spot and we were separated. In the hiking part though I didn't feel isolated or seeking companionship. I had a purpose (Bear Mountain Bridge) and I was going towards it.
The morning after camp was one of the most beautiful, peaceful and joyful moments I've ever experienced.
Everything was so calm and pure. Nature was inviting me to spend time in freshness and serenity. There was a lake near the place a spent the night. Just looking at it at those moments made me completely happy. I couldn't resist and jumped in :) This action multiplied my joy :)

Afterwards I continued my journey going up and down the mountains. At times the climbs where quite strenuous and made me compare it to my life's journey. I have a path, I am walking on it and sometimes it's exhausting but all I need to do is rest and continue. I am doing it because I like it. And when I get tired and the slopes seem hard, doesn't make it bad or  frightening. "Working hard" is fun as opposed to scary is what I realized for me. I have to like what I am doing, that's all :)
It was good times alone with nature and my thoughts. It feel's like I am re-living my adolescence :) It's nice. It gives me courage.

Some photos

It's Friday :)

I feel quite happy today because it's Friday. It makes me think how I feel about happiness and work. I really want to be happy everyday of the week when I grow up. I want the work to blend with my life in such a way so I don't have to think so passionately about my days off. Off what ?  Off something I feel is hard to do ? Off something I don't like. Off something that makes me tired and makes me want to do nothing. May be the key lies in the balance? May be we do something that we love and we do it with measure. We don't over work ourselves and have time of rest during the week as well. It seems the middle way could work... We'll see. Поживём — увидим :)

Victory !

So today I again proved to myself that I have control over my situation no matter how dire it seems . But it's only after suffering I realize I can do something about it. 

Could the anguish be bypassed ? I am sure  :)  

Gypsy Jazz Swing

Yesterday night while watching "The Way"(the Emilio Estevez film), some quite pleasant music came thought my window. There is a place right across the street form my apt that hosts live bands every Wednesday (and now Mondays). So I went downstairs and listened the last twenty minutes of the set of The Bailsmen.
http://thebailsmen.bandcamp.com/
You can listen do them every Wed at the The Belfry.